Expect nothing, live frugally on surprise

Decidi a escribir este diario en espanol, porque? No se. Quiero ver quien va a llevar el tiempo para leer esto. Me imagino que nadien pero vamos a ver.

Hoy era un dia muy loco. Esta manana me llevante triste por la culpa de Meghan. Esto es dificil. Mis clases no era malo hoy. Lo unico que no me guesto era que durante el tiempo que yo estaba esperando para ir a mi clase de matematicas, Melissa me grito. Ella se puede poner muy enojada aveces. Pues despues de eso fui a clase y despues a mi cuarto. Hice un poco de matematics hasta casa las dos y media. Ha ese tiempo fue a almozar porque tienia que ir a me sita con la nutristina ( i made that word up ) Eso me pueso nerviosa. Era como yo estaba hablando con un terapeuta. Le dije todo de cuando yo tenia problemas con comida y haciendo mucho ejercicio. Tambien le dije todo de mi padre. Era dificil, y duero para decirlo a alguien que no sabien, pues no era tanto eso, pero un adulto. Tengo que verla la semana que viene. Dijo que me va a ayudar bajar en peso. Quiero perder como diez libras, o doce. 

Alie hay que voy hacer con ella. Yo la amo mucho, pero aveces me vuelve loca. Era es tan dramatica. Me puese un poco loca, pero ella estaba alli para me. Como yo la enoje, pero cuando le dije que necesitaba ayuda era estaba alli para me. Despues de un tiempo hablando ella mensiono a mi novia. Pero era una cabrona. Dijo algo que no lo esperaba por la relacion que tenemos. La repuesta de ella sobre eso ella que ella puede decir lo que quiere. En realidad es verdad, pero no lo esperaba en nuesta situacion. Me dijo que su amigo le dijo que ella era una cabrona y despues le dijo “algo antisimpatico” y le pregunte lo que fue que el dijo. No era nada antisimpatico, y le dije. Le dije que lo que yo queria decirle era antisimpatico. Despues se enojo y se fue. Tu sabes, es dramatica.

Que mas? Pues Meghan y yo tenia una pelea. Ella me dijo que hizo mal en un examen. Ella dice eso cada rato, pue esta ves dije algo a Emily sobre eso. Y ella se enojo conmigo, como yo supuesto saber que ella verdad que hizo malo! De cual quier manera, le dije que era me culpa, y que me disculpe.

Cuando me llevante esta manana dije que era escribir en esto. Hiba a escribir de que yo siento que a mi me importa las relacions que tengo con una person mas que ellos, usando Meghan y Alie de ejemplo. Quizas es porque sin ellos dos no tengo a nadien. Como Meghan, ella tiene tantos amigas que sin me esta lo mas bien. Alie, no se tanto, cuando peliamos no habla conmigo, y ella es capa de hacerlo por dias. Para me, no puedo esta consintrado si hay un disculte. Quizas ellas no sienten como yo, pero eso es lo que creo.

Ahora me voy a dormir. Es tarde y esto llevo mucho tiempo. Si lo leyista escribe un repuesto. Es como un examen jajaja.

Adios!

November 4th, 2008 | Category: Everyday things | Comments (1)

No motivation to type

November 4th, 2008 | Category: Everyday things | Leave a comment

The Hush Sound

Who shot that arrow in your throat?
Who missed the crimson apple?
It hung heavy on the tree above your head

This chaos, this calamity, this garden once was perfect
Give your immortality to me; I’ll set you up against the stars

Gloria,
We lied, we can’t go on
This is the time and this is the place to be alive

Who shot that arrow in your throat?
Who missed the crimson apple?
And there is discord in the garden tonight

The sea is wine red
This is the death of beauty
The doves have died
The lovers have lied

I cut the arrow from your neck
Stretched you beneath the tree
Among the roots and baby’s breath
I covered us with silver leaves

Gloria,
We lied, we can’t go on
This is the time and this is the place to be alive

The sea is wine red
This is the death of beauty
The doves have died
The lovers have lied

The sea is wine red
This is the death of beauty
The doves have died
The lovers have lied

The sea is wine red (Gloria, we lied)
This is the death of beauty (this is the time and place)
The doves have died (Gloria, we lied)
The lovers have lied (this is the time and place)

October 20th, 2008 | Category: Everyday things | Leave a comment

My porfolio with all of my journals is due on Tuesday. Here are the little entries from the past week. I haven’t written in this in a while, so this is good enough. They aren’t as in detail as they should be since I wrote all of them on Friday, except the one from today obviously. I can’t predict the future.

Journal,                                                                                                                                                                                10/11/08

Oh what a day it was yesterday. Meeting Alie was crazy, she looked like how I thought, but a little different. Her side profile was different, but in a good way. I’m like in love with her mouth, as weird as that sounds. I was nervous about meeting her parents. They were intimidating, her dad more so. I was like tested with him. I handed Alie a shirt and the first thing he said was “that’s not a McCain shirt is it?” I laughed and said no, but it was clearly a test. It was cool though because they let us go on our own and walk around. Alie did tell them that I went to Boston all the time…which I didn’t and Alie told me after I told them I didn’t that she told them I always went. We walked around and saw most of the same shops. We must have done the same loop over and over, but it was fun. We stopped into All Great things about Boston…or I could have totally made the name up, I don’t really know. That was fun, I didn’t think she was nervous at this point, but she told me she was shaking haha, how cute. The ice cream was the best part! I noticed her shaved arms, which we talked about as being weird. And I wanted to see what goose bumps would look like but she couldn’t get like cold haha. I decided that if I touched her neck it would give her the chills, then producing goose bumps. She saw that I was going towards her neck and when I touched her, she screamed and the ice cream flew haha! It was soo funny. She wouldn’t look me in the eyes, that was so cute. That’s how I knew she was nervous, but other than that she did pretty well for hiding it. We did that silly booth picture. We had a good time and I liked the way the pictures turned out. Anyway, I can’t wait until Sunday when we hang out again. Peaceee.

                                                                                                                                                                                10/11/08

I should have run in the race yesterday. It was weird not, but I tried to make it into a good thing. I took a ton of pictures and video clips, so that helped. The thought of oh, I could have beaten her, or I could have been right there is what made it suck. It was a good time nonetheless. Hanging out with Meghan was okay. I cried a lot, causing her to cry. Blah, it just sucks now. I’m scared. Other than that it was fun, we watched Law and Order: SVU, a few episodes. We ate pizza, and then we got to sleep together. That’s always fun. I was supposed to work out today, but I met up with Alie and just didn’t do anything, then had Meghan come over. It was fun with Alie until Meghan started texting and made things suck. I felt bad because I couldn’t defend her and I know that’s what she wanted. The problem was I felt the same way Meghan did, and she knew that, she was just hurt that I couldn’t tell her that, but I was just silent. She gave me great advice about my relationship with Meghan. She’s really good help, like the night of our fight, she totally made me feel better the same with today. She’s such a great friend, I hope I don’t lose her. Anyway, Meghan is here to play Friend’s Trivia with Emily, it should be fun to watch since they’ve talking about this for a while. Until tomorrow

Journal,                                                                                                                                                                                10/13/08

Meghan stayed over! It was great falling asleep next to her, in my bed this time! It was nice walking up with her there. She left to go to an open house at Brandeis. I told her to come back after and she did. It was so great. I got to lay with her, and we were just both really cute. Lately it’s like we’ve fallen in love all over again. All the cute things that used to be said, and how we acted in the beginning were coming back. I love it. I didn’t even notice that it had stopped, but it starting up again is what made me realize it. It’s such a great feeling. I bet if things were going like this all a long she would never have doubted our relationship. Oh well I’m living for now, and right now things are great. Thank you Alie, I’ve realized that I need to live for today and not worry about tomorrow.

Journal,                                                                                                                                                                10/14/08

This week is going to be a good one I can tell. I have a sociology paper due Thursday along with a math project, math homework and math extra credit. We got the project out of the way, fairly easily. I thought that I would focus just on math today, but I finished all of it! I even started transcribing for my sociology paper. It was nice getting a break from expos. My meeting went well. So it’s betters to have a short journal one day, then nothing at all so I’ll be sure to do that. She said even if its a few sentences it’s still better. That makes sense; I wonder why I didn’t think of that. Oh well. I think I’m going to bed now, I’m pretty happy with where I’m at.

Journal,                                                                                                                                                                                10/15/08

Today, well yesterday since it’s wicked late. But anyway, it was a good day. Forget the class stuff, I talked to Meghan on the phone for like ever, and it was just like before. I was so tired but said I wasn’t just so it would last. I miss that a lot. I finished my paper too and I think it’s the best one so far. I hope Dr. David thinks so too. Oh I forgot to mention I started running yesterday. I don’t feel any pain at all; I even did a hard workout with Barb today. How exciting! I know I’m out of order, but it’s early and it’s coming out as I think of it. I saw the final presidential debate. I already voted so I was just hoping that I would still feel confident in who I voted for. I did. Anyway, I should get going I have an 8:30. It was such a great night!!! I love Meghan! Byee

Journal ,                                                                                                                                                               10/16/08

I was late to IT. I was freaking out. I kept saying FUCK, but it wasn’t bad. We were working on a fun PowerPoint project, which I submitted all ready. I like the way mine turned out. J What elseee, in sociology, I did a lot of talking. I like talking in the class. I really enjoy that class. I even talked about how I did my analysis on a joke. That was fun. Maybe I’ll become a sociologist. You never know! I also decided that when I graduate, I want to focus on triathlons as opposed to like marathons. Seems to be more fun. What elseeee. Since I was late I didn’t shower, brush my teeth or anything, so after sociology, I did that. I had to run 2 hours later but it made me feel more awake and just better. Math was so stressful. Fucking Eddy can’t even manage to do the thing he had to do right! He has an instruction sheet. Goddamn how hard is it to print out on 4 separate pieces of paper the work we did and the source! We talked about ever page we needed. Goddamn, double check! This is worth 50 points! Grrrr. Christina and I were both upset. I talked to Meghan a lot. God I love her, I love how we are now. I talked to her with Lisa in the room. I said I loved her and all this stuff I wonder if she realized yet. I don’t know Emily says she doesn’t know if I should tell her. I don’t know but I liked just talking to her. We played yahoo pool too. She said I would get kisses if I won, or if I made a shot. I didn’t do either, I was sad about that. Oh well, I’ll get my kisses hahaha. Time for bed, I have work in the morning. Peacee J

Journal,                                                                                                                                                                                10/19/08

                God yesterday was such a great day. Although I had no sleep when I went to practice it was great.  Meghan came over, and it was a blast. I had a meeting until 4 so I told her to be here for when I was done, and she was. We hung out for a bit in my room then we went down to eat with Melanie. Meghan didn’t eat, but it was nice having here there. We played pool after, now that was fun. She’s really good, and I’m not as bad as I thought. Melanie was good too. What bothered me was she said the whole time was how much she sucked, but really she was good. We did that for a while, then it was shower time. I showered and Meghan talked to Alie. Ugh what a fucking disaster it is now because of that. Anyway, yesterday it was fine. So after having a good laugh over that we took a nap. Meghan kept waking me up, I was annoyed by that, but it wasn’t that big of a deal. I saw she sent me a text in between waking up and sleeping that said she was bored because I was sleeping, so I decided I’d get up and do something for her…well me too but whatever. I said we should go for a walk, she liked that. I showed her all around campus, it was cute. We held hands and did all that cute stuff, and she was really happy that I was finally showing her everything. I bought her a pizza bagel, which she like didn’t eat. Blah. Then we went to UNO where everyone except us two ate. I had the waiter bring Emily a birthday surprise. I thought it was very clever of me J After that we went to see The Rocky Horror Picture Show. That was the best movie I’ve ever been too. It’s so worth the money you pay. Everyone…well almost everyone, gets all dressed up, and is just crazy. They have like a whole cast of actors playing out the whole thing while the movie is playing, and they have silly things going on before and during. It was a blast! Lasted until 2:30 am! I love Meghan so much, it drives me nuts. Things are so great now between us and it’s because of Alie. I totally used that as a way to segue into our situation now. So I told Alie about how Meghan was talking to her. I didn’t think it was a big deal. I was impressed by how Alie acted during the whole thing. She didn’t give in at all. It showed me how much she cared. Well I thought she was a great friend until today. She’s pissed at me for something I didn’t do. I thought it was funny so I’m the bad person. Meghan apologized, she didn’t mean it make her upset. It was just supposed to be a good laugh,. Which we all saw it as except Alie who saw it as a way of testing her. Oh shut the fuck up, it wasn’t. Did she listen to me nooooopppppe. Does she ever though? Nopeee. She wouldn’t talk to me about it, she would saw something then leave. If it wasn’t going her way, she would make a comment then leave. You’re fucking old enough to talk to me. She goes to Audrey who defends her. Uses Audrey, HONESTLY Alie?! She doesn’t need to be defended she needs to grow up. I’m sure Alie added her own twist to the story. Whatever. I’m sick of always being the one to want to make things better between us. ALWAYS. Honestly I still don’t get how I’m friends with her after that huge fight. She was the biggest bitch, and I approached her! She should have come to me, but no I went to her. I’m sick of it. I feel like I care more about our relationship than she does. This tends to happen to me, I care more than the other person. She fucking knows, I can’t do anything else when we fight, that that’s all I focus on yet she can’t talk to me because she needs to ‘calm down’ oh fuck me, calm down. Calm down my ass, calm is how I would have been if she would have talked to me, now I’m going to be a complete bitch. I can’t stand this anymore. I just want to punch something. It fucking pisses me off, that I fucking get done talking about how she’s so great, and how I never want to lose her, then she does this. Fucking ughhhh. I hate you. Will I regret saying that, probably, but we’ve been friends long enough for her to know me, to know that I didn’t mean for any of this to happen. I didn’t defend her, where the fuck was defending needed? Ugh I’m so fucking pissed. I wasn’t involved in this. I just thought it was funny. For fucks sake! Now I need to study, will that happen? Probably not because of Alie being a little fucking bitch.

Wish my luck on my mid-term! Eeek

October 20th, 2008 | Category: Everyday things | Leave a comment

It’s now 2:08. I will be meeting Alie at about…5:30.

Crazyyy, hope all goes well

Peace

October 10th, 2008 | Category: Everyday things | Leave a comment

Answering a question with another question
Not responding when I say something on msn right away. I know that’s selfish but I hate waiting!
When I ask for help finding something ex. the definition of a word, then being told “type it into google” as if it wasn’t something I had already tried.

I’ll add more when they occur or when I think of more.

October 9th, 2008 | Category: Everyday things | Leave a comment

What a year it’s been. It’s crazy that just a couple of hours I will be 18.
That means I’m legal, I can vote, I can buy cigarettes, I can buy lotto/scratch offs, and I can buy porn. Mostly if I do something wrong, I’m considered an adult, eeek. Good thing I’m a good kid

I’m trying to have as much fun as I can, just dancing around acting like a fool. What a good time.
I tried on like all of my roommates clothes that I cleaned for her. I shall put some pictures up. Also a picture from dinner with the XC girls. They paid for my dinner and got the place to sing to me

Alie picked this btw. The first one I tried really hard to make my arm look skinny, but I think my body looks nice in it, which I don’t say often! The second is my model pose haha, and the last was just a picture where no one saw the camera but me.

Here’s a dinner one.

Okay, back to having fun!

October 4th, 2008 | Category: Everyday things | Leave a comment

I no longer go to Bentley College, but now it’s Bentley University.

The Bentley Board of Trustees announced today that the college has received approval from the Massachusetts Board of Higher Education (MBHE) to change its designation and name to become Bentley University, effective October 2, 2008.

“This is a landmark event in Bentley’s history as our leadership in business education and research is once again recognized,” said Gloria Cordes Larson, Bentley President. “Bentley has become the model of a 21st Century business university. With a comprehensive and highly integrated business and arts & science curriculum; industry leading technology facilities and expertise; and innovative teaching and research agendas, Bentley has been operating at the level expected of a university and we are extremely pleased that the MBHE has recognized that.”

“In today’s economic climate, our mission — to develop the next generation of global business leaders who can perform at a high level in complex environments in a responsible and ethical manner; a manner that understands and respects the broader social, political and environmental circumstances — couldn’t be more relevant. The events in the financial markets of the last two weeks have provided a compelling lesson in how important such leadership is now and in the future,” added Larson.

Bentley’s management team made a commitment several years ago to lay the foundation that would create university-level credentials in key strategic areas. Investments were made in the creation of two distinctive PhD programs; a highly integrated undergraduate program that combines business with the liberal arts and offers a second major in Liberal Studies; and wide ranging interdisciplinary research.

In addition to expanding its academic and research programs, Bentley has also made considerable investments in its physical facilities over the last 10 years including a state-of-the-art library and high tech labs, including the renowned Trading Room in the Hughey Center for Financial Services; residence halls; a student center; and a renovated and expanded athletic facility. There has also been significant growth in the school’s endowment, donor contributions, applications and program enrollments.

In 2005 Bentley introduced the Liberal Studies Major - a first-of-its-kind program for a business school. This unique program gives students the opportunity to major in business and the liberal arts, and receive credentials in both. As of the fall semester 2008, more than 500 undergraduates have enrolled in this optional program. In the same year Bentley’s PhD programs in Business and Accountancy were introduced, attracting highly qualified students from around the world including Canada, China, France, Germany, India, Israel, Japan, Taiwan and Turkey, as well as from the United States.

Bentley Provost Robert D. Galliers states, “We believe the hallmark of a first rate business university is faculty research that informs teaching and impacts practice. We see teaching and research as mutually reinforcing and, as a university, this will continue to be the case.”

Bentley faculty pursue a rigorous agenda of research on topics that have a clear impact on business and societal issues including boardroom bias, e-politics, terrorism, financial markets, cyberlaw, enterprise systems, offshoring, service operations and knowledge management, to name but a few examples.

Bentley has been nationally and internationally recognized for its uncommon approach to business education. The Carnegie Foundation recently chose Bentley as one of a few institutions to study based on the distinctive ways the school approaches business and liberal arts learning. Since business is now the largest undergraduate major in the country, it has become a pivotal area for further study and innovation. The Carnegie team concluded that, “after reviewing dozens of undergraduate business programs, Bentley offers one of the strongest and most interesting examples of integrating business education and liberal learning.” As a result, the research group expects to highlight Bentley’s methods in a book addressing this important academic topic.

Galliers adds, “The business university concept that fully integrates arts and sciences is one that has been developed and promoted extensively at Bentley; with 40% of our 270 fulltime faculty in the Liberal Arts, we clearly demonstrate our commitment to integrating business with the arts & sciences.”

Most recently, Bentley underwent a rigorous review by the European Foundation for Management Development (EFMD) and was awarded the prestigious EQUIS accreditation, becoming one of only two business schools in the U.S. and 113 worldwide, to earn this distinction. EQUIS is the leading international system of quality assessment, improvement and accreditation of higher education institutions in Management and Business Administration.

Bentley is also accredited by The Association to Advance Collegiate Schools of Business (AACSB International), making it just one of 50+ institutions worldwide to have earned both EQUIS and AACSB accreditation. The university is also accredited by the New England Association of Schools and Colleges Inc. (NEASC).
BENTLEY UNIVERSITY is a leader in business education. Centered on teaching and research in business and related professions, Bentley blends the breadth and technological strength of a university with the core values and student focus of a close-knit campus. Our undergraduate curriculum combines business study with a strong foundation in the arts and sciences. The McCallum Graduate School emphasizes the impact of technology on business practice, in offerings that include MBA and Master of Science programs, PhD programs in accountancy and in business, and custom executive education programs. Located minutes from Boston in Waltham, Massachusetts, the school enrolls approximately 4,000 full-time undergraduate, 250 adult part-time undergraduate, 1,400 graduate, and 30 doctoral students. Bentley is accredited by the New England Association of Schools and Colleges; AACSB International – The Association to Advance Collegiate Schools of Business; and the European Quality Improvement System (EQUIS), which benchmarks quality in management and business education.
http://www.bentley.edu/news-events/pr_view.cfm?id=680484&cid=RSS01
This is exciting.

I was told that minoring in IT was a good idea, so maybe I’ll do that. I want to do the 5 year program so that I can get my masters in Accounting. So major in Accounting, minor in IT.
I guess this whole law thing will have to wait.

It’s 6:17, I had 2 classes, practice, dinner. I have to clean, and do some homework.
Since my birthday is on Saturday I am determined to not do any Saturday or Sunday. I need to get it done today and tomorrow.

I’m watching the debate at 9 so I need to get stuff done before then.

It’s so crazy how the place you are influences you so much. Every teacher says that they don’t want to put their views or opinions on anyone else but they do. In New York, it was like McCain is great, and now here it’s like Obama is great. I don’t know who I’m voting for anymore. I need to really do research and look at specific aspects of their campaign. I should have seen the Presidential debate…

Hmm what elseee. Tomorrow I don’t have class but I have work from 9-11 then I have a meeting then I need to run. Tomorrow night the XC team is going out to dinner for my birthday so I’m excited about that. Saturday Meghan and Emily have the whole day planned so I don’t know what’s going on, all I know is I’m buying porn, cigarettes and a scratch off. Then I’m spending the night with Meghan. I’m excited!

Sunday I’m doing the Breast Cancer Walk, maybe..who knows now. Then I have to be around my room for when students come for open house, since our room was chosen. I have to run too, but that’s all I have planned.

Okay, it’s time to get things done.

Peaceee

October 2nd, 2008 | Category: Everyday things | Leave a comment

This week is just amazing, things are turning around. God doesn’t hate me this week. I’m supposed to meet with Cindy Scott about my stressing out/always up/falling behind. I didn’t get back to her until yesterday. I don’t need her help but Nash said it would be a good idea to see her anyway since she will be a lot of help throughout my years here. I made the appointment for 11 on Friday. Monday I had government which was fine because I didn’t have it all week. The whole period was basically spent on one group, they were talking about important events. I took a lot of notes, and felt like I knew a lot about what was going on because I did a lot of reading on France. Math is always good <333. Then I didn’t have practice so that was nice. Yesterday was good too. It’s normally my bad days since I go from 8:30 to 2 but it as good. It is also always a good class. Sociology is always great too. I guess Tuesdays aren’t bad like I think. I talked to Prof. David about doing triathlons. I’m very interested and he seems like he really wants to fill me in on it. I like that, he didn’t tell me just a bit and send me on my way, he truly seemed like he cared to help me. Expos was good. I got my second draft back, and there were comments that were easily fixed. It was a lot better than my first one. I did some corrections already for it, but I’m going to do what Prof. Fischer said, put it to the side and come back another day and you’ll find more you can fix. Practice sucked. I eat too much and too soon before I run so I feel like shit when I go. It was an easy run so it wasn’t too bad. Well actually I thought I was going to puke, so it was bad. Anyway I didn’t have much homework…none really. I did a little reading and I talked to Alie a lot. I started reading The Pact. It’s such a good book already. Jodi Piccoult is like…amazing. Which reminds me I sorta just forgot about My Sister’s Keeper.  Opps. I’ve been going to bed early and I’ve felt great. Today was a good day too. I just had FS, which isn’t really a class, and I have cool teachers.  They like me and I like them too. I’m sorta a comic relief kinda girl. Government was good as well. We watched a movie on Germany, and Hitler. It’s crazy how he just mesmerized everyone in Germany to the point that they didn’t see what was going on. Like how can all those people be killed and you just don’t realize it? I took a lot of notes, it was a good movie. It was pouring out, and I actually took the time to look cute. Since I got a lot of sleep I had the energy to straighten my hair and actually pick out decent clothes. Also the fact that my first class is at 9:55 probably helps. Anyway, it was pouring but I needed to get food in before I ran. Bad idea, I felt bad again, not as bad but still bad. We did hills and the rain stopped completely and it became hot. That was odd, but it was a good run. I should probably have a paragraph break by now, but whate

            I needed to read for sociology and I did that, fairly easily actually. I wanted to work on more work so I don’t have any for the weekend but I was talking to a lot of people. Meghan, like, I love her so much! Ugh, it is crazy how she says the littlest things but they make me just want to say I love you! Her little comments are so fucking cute!

I was talking to Alie too, I don’t even know. Her thinking is unbelievable. I mean I sorta knew her thinking was like this, but it’s just so extreme. There is no way that it’s healthy. She has this huge idea that everyone is out to harm her, and that if people really care about her they will break down her barriers to do that. She says that in doing this it will prevent people who don’t care from hurting her. To me that is just..very weird, like that’s too much. I mean I used to think everyone was out to get me, and that I was going to die if I left my house when I was in middle school. I was scared even my family was out to get me..but like I realized that wasn’t the case.  I mean why does she think like this? How does  she expect people to love her, and want to get to know her if she makes it so hard for people? I mean she says if they care enough they will, it’s high school. People don’t understand that concept fully, nor do they want to take the time. High school is popularity shit and is nothing like how things are, it’s a small part of the world that you think means a lot at the time but really means shit. I used to be like wtf why doesn’t anyone like me, but really wtf was I thinking. It was high schooI! Not a big deal. Alie said being negative is a way of protecting herself and that if people think she’s impenetrable and someone who doesn’t feel emotion then she can’t get hurt but it’s like people won’t approach you, and she responded with it’s a price I pay. Which really confused me, it’s like if you’re will to take that then why not take the risk of getting hurt in order to find someone who cares? I don’t know why I’m so bothered by this. Maybe it’s because I don’t want her to feel like this and I know there’s nothing I can say to change this about her. I don’t know.

Anyway, I have an 8:30 so I should get some sleep. I guess I’ll just have to read more of The Pact tomorrow. No big deal.

Peace.

I copied this from word, no idea why the font size changes….

October 2nd, 2008 | Category: Everyday things | Leave a comment